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Hold me ;(

I hate relapsing to this but I just find it hard to be happy when other people in other countries are dying just because their nation doesn't have the funds to support their economy. It's something i'm deeply passionate about but I choose to do nothing.

Why?

Becuase I know whatever effort I make, it will always never be enough. I'm so discontent with everything that I just hate it. I never feel comfortable commiting myself to anyone or anything. I hate bothering you with my personal issues but I just feel like people don't care about me as much as I care about. I value everyone in a very high regard, I just see many of the people I see as great individuals who do so much for other people and I see myself doing nothing but feeling horrible about it. The only thing that feels anything remotely related to being right is to rant about it like now, I hate bothering you with my issues and i'm sure your tired of it but.....fuck....I try to care but I can't, I just feel like despite all that I do with myself i'll always be a horrible person.